Ignorance Is Bliss

The sky is no longer blue enough to compete with my sadness.
And only the deep red of blood can convey my anguish.
Now the black abyss of the deep ocean carries sadness equal to mine.
Now the bright red of the sunset shares in my anger.

Time heals all wounds is lie.
Or is it that I still have not waited long enough?
I try to temper my bitterness with compassion.
So it does not rot away my insides.

This me is not the me I knew.
But knowing what I now know I cannot be who I knew.
I guess the only real truth,
Ignorance is bliss.

Afraid to Die

I don't see the point anymore.
Really I never did.
The more I pursue freedom and acceptance,
The more it eludes me.
I didn't ask for the gift of life.
Every moment I exist it feels that I'm in the way.
Taking up space that would be better off empty.
There was never any room for me.
And I cannot see my life getting any better.
I see it gradually going further downhill.
As if I'm the one-drop that'll cause the river to overflow.
I didn't ask to exist.
But I'm too afraid to die.

Shattered Dimensions

The moment I don't respond and start kissing you and shit.

You should run cuz I just lied with no words passing my lips.

I won't speak lies if I don't have to, I'll just offer reassurance. 

Then once I'm gone I'll leave no explanation for my absence. 

Let you have moments of pure bliss and believe that they'll continue to exist.

But when the last one ends and I walk away asking God for forgiveness.

Cuz I left you content not knowing that we'd end with this. 

You were so in love and I made you believe that my feelings were in resemblance. 

I wasn't a man. I was too scared to be there when I shatter your peaceful dimension.