A Connection

My soul aches for a connection.
I need more than what I can explain.
I do not wish to be alone.
I do not wish to be not alone.
I want everything that the world has to offer me.
But yet I only want to live comfortably.
I want to have my intergrity.
I need to be in control.
I need to accept that I cannot control everything.
Everything would just fall into place if I had that connection.
It isn't a psychological or bodily need.
All of me needs it.
I feign for it.
In my center, not my heart, not my mind.
My soul feigns for that connection.
The connection that makes everything okay.
The connection that frees me and binds.
The connection that makes everything okay,
even when it's not.
The connection that makes everyday beyond just worth living.
The connection that makes each day a day that can be savored and remembered.