Lies and Illusions

A life full of lies and illusions.
False truths and untrue unions.
And I am one untruth distributor.
Telling lies in attempts to alter the future.
Or maybe just run from a painful past.
But I can't escape from a pain that'll always last.
Claiming Mary Jane is all I need but long for another.
To lay, hold and love every night under the covers.
I need someone or something to help me let go of it all.
But when will I hit the ground and put an end to this endless fall.
Darkness all around me, I'm in the abyss falling from the light.
I fall just a little further each night.
Tell a lie til I believe it in my mind.
But the truth still rings clear when I close my eyes.
I don't care, I don't love but I wish to.
You think I care, that I love and wish not to.
Open your heart to me, anybody let me in.
Use your light to fill my darkness that lies within.
In darkness lies screams, anger and hatred.
And I need someone's light to free myself and escape it.
I don't know if I'll make it, I can't take this.
This content is a lie, how much longer can I fake this?
I need somebody to free me but I won't settle for anybody.
Set me free, where is that special somebody?