Gripped

I feel like my soul has been drowning in fear for so long.
And there was just no way for me to move on.
Second guessing every thought as it appears.
Constantly worried about if I did this how would it appear.
Needing to keep all my thoughts from my peers.
Just what made me so gripped with fear?

There are so many words and things I wish I had said and done.
These feelings eat away at my heart and turn it into crumbs.
Now there is nothing left to commit to the one.
I can't seem to remember just how this begun. 
I guess all my driving force got burnt up chasing my previous sun.